This past few hours I had received an amazingly devastating news. If this is about someone that I don’t closely related maybe it would be way easier but this one, this is about someone closely connect to me.

I don’t have words to express how devastated I am but all I could do gave all the support I have.

I’m not surprised because this is kinda something that I could easily predict specially through some signs that I have seen. But maybe I’m just not ready if it became reality. Like I need a big needle to poop the dream bubble so it won’t become like what happened.

Anyway, I feel like I’m losing the solid ground where I put my feet all this time.

He will be dissapointed once again.

I really want to hug him, and I know this will be extremely painful for him.

Try my best to always be by your side even I’m no one to you.

This dissapointment bring tears to my eyes and I believe it will goes the same for him.

This is a song by 98 degrees…well i’m one of their fans i might say. I love their songs. I don’t know why after all this time today have to be the day that i really listen to this one song.

Well maybe it really gets in to me because i just had it. Anyway listening to this song today really is an entertainment for me.

Remembering him in a fun and lovely way.
For you there…missing you as a dear friend, happy for you no matter what :-)

Thanks for today dear almighty…

Why (are we still friends) - 98 degrees

We do almost everything that lovers do
And that’s why it’s hard, just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me too
It’s hard to wipe your tears away (tears away)
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why

“[CHORUS:]”

Why – why are we still friends
When everything says 
We should be more than we are
And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends (Just Being Friends)

I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I’m always scared I’ll lose you anyway
Somehow somewhere I’ve got to choose (got to choose)
No matter if it’s win or lose
Now tell me why

“[CHORUS]”

I don’t wanna be like your brother
I don’t wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be the woman in mine

“[CHORUS x2]”

Last night i watched Indonesian Idol babak spekatuler. Sangat penasaran menantikan gimana performance beberapa peserta nya @reginaivanova4 @dionagungs @therealoda @kamasean .

Suara mereka memang bagus…tapi semalam yg ditunggu adalah performance mereka menyanyikan lagu boyband dan girlband. Jadi mereka dibagi 3 group:

Group 1: Rio, Dera, Sandy - Inikah Cinta (ME)
ga terlalu tertarik sama group yg ini siy…jd ga terlalu memperhatikan. Kenapa ga tertarik…ya karena di group pertama ini ga ada yg gw jagoin. As simple as that *wink

Group 2: Yoda, Febri, Dion - I Heart You (SM*SH)
super tertarik sama group ini. Karena ada dua jagoan gw dan mereka nyanyiin IHU! Suara mereka bertiga ini beda2nya cukup ekstrim…jadi penasaran kayak apa IHU jadinya. Keren!!! Aransemen nya seru…beda banget sama versi asli nya…bahkan mereka bertiga membawakan part sesuai karakter mereka di idol. Waktu febri menyanyikan bagian dia dengan versi muse, itu ga nyangka banget tp tetep seru. Trus duo favorit dion sama yoda, kerennnn. Ga nyangka jd seru aja.

Group 3: Regina, Sean, Rosa - Dilema (Cherrybelle)
yg ini sama serunya…aransemen trus vokal nya 3 cewe ini…pokoknya bagus…jelas beda sama asli nya.

Nah…ada yg agak ganggu niy. Dua group idol yg nyanyiin lagu dari bb dan gb yg paling dikenal setahun terakhir ini hasilnya jauh beda sama penyanyi asli nya…jauh lebih bagus kalo menurut gw.

Sentimen sama bb dan gb? jelas ga…tapi fakta aja kalo bb dan gb yg sudah melambung namanya itu kan di scouting ga khusus konsentrasi pada vokal jadi ya mungkin dicari yg bisa ketemu harmoni nya dalam satu group yg harus bisa nyanyi juga dance.

Kalo idol kan memang scouting nya buat penyanyi solo. Kalo penyanyi solo kan wajib!mesti!harus! punya suara yg bisa membuat yg nonton nengok karena suaranya luar biasa.

Jadi kalo ada yg bilang penampilan idol group kemarin lebih bagus penyanyi asli nya mungkin ada baiknya beli cotton bud supaya clear kuping nya…atau kurangi pemakaian earphone biar ga distorsi kuping nya.

Kalo nge-fans ya jadi fans yg baik dongs…masa kalo idola nya memang kurang bagus tampilnya dibilang keren…itu namanya fitnah.

And you know what…fitnah lebih kejam dari pembunuhan.

Mending kalo kurang baik ya bilang aja jadi kan bisa perbaikan.

*Tutupmukaspeechless

Aku masih ingat hari itu.
Rentang tangan ini memeluk mu,
dan kurasakan rengkuhan tangan mu.
Hangatnya aliran kasih yang membuat mereka cemburu.

Hari itu…
Hanya ada kita.
Menapaki tajamnya kerikil yg mencoba menghentikan setiap asa.

Kita mungkin tak pernah mendaki gunung tertinggi,
ataupun menyelami laut terdalam.
Namun tiap peluh yg tercucur tak akan pernah berbohong bahwa kita pernah menggapai tingginya asa bersama.

Air mata serta senyum adalah hiasan mutlak yg akan selamanya jadi saksi bisu ketika akhirnya asa kita tergapai.

Hari itu…
Berlalu tanpa ada jejak tersisa,

Menguap…

Hanya bisikan angin yg masih bersedia untuk terus menceritakan kisah tentang kita hari itu.

Hari ini…
Hari itu adalah cerita lalu

Hari ini…
Hari itu hanya bertajuk ‘dulu’

Hari ini…
Kita menjadi asing untuk aku, kamu dan semesta.

*merindukan dia yg tak lagi boleh kurindukan. seandainya mereka mau mengerti bahwa ini semua tanpa syarat.

Lihat disana
Air tak lagi ramah membasuh
Terketukah hatimu

Lihat disana
Mata yang kosong menahan lapar
Terpanggilkah jiwamu

Dan disini kita terlalu cepat menghabiskan
Tanpa pernah tahu sampai kapan

Lihat disana
Bila hijaupun menjadi gundul
Tersentuhkah hatimu

Lihat disana
Mereka susah bertahan hidup
Terusikkah dirimu

Dan disini semua ada
Bilahkah bertahan
Jika tak mulai dari sekarang…

Reff :
Berbagilah pada dunia
Bumi memanas membutuhkan kita
Berbagilah pada dunia
Buka mata dan hati tux berbagi
Mari berbagi. , . !

Ulurkan tangan
Jangan pernah ragu, kawan
Dunia memanggil
tuk kita berbuat
Berbuat demi bumi

Rap :
Jikalau langit sudah tak lagi cerah
Asap limbah menjarah semua yg indah
Semilir angin pun mulai berdesir resah
Bumi gelisah menahan amarah…

I might called it something fresh. Not new, since in this old earth nothing really new…just something fresh with tons addition as an adaptation to the latest era.

This things i want to share purely my own experience that started around 2yrs ago where i’ve been blessed to meet this amazing people and learn tons of things from them.

This is not new but surely fresh and for something fresh like this one for sure there will be loads of procons about it. I dont mind about this procons since that mean this is real thing in real life. But what i dont really like is when this fresh thing always get this shallow comment and being underestimate for their existence.

I’ve learn loads even tons of lesson for this past two years from great and amazing people i’ve meet since day one till today. And now…some of this amazing people that i do admire make another fresh thing. Almost a year they have been finding the fresh formula for this new dough, kneading it, baked it and in few more days it’ll be ready to present it to the world.

They already give the world a teaser to this almost well cooked dough…and here it goes, be ready to hear all those shallow comment that makes your ear and mind feels like burning.

Since i’ve learn my lesson no way im going to response to it. I dont really care with that negativity, it only drag 99% of positivity. Totally not somethkng good. But i do have my opinion and comment to their shallow mind.

This new almost well cooked dough consist of 5 young lads they comes from different background and of course have their own unique story. Well anyway i’ll talk abt how they gather etc later on…this time i want to talk abt this shallow comment abt the body weight.

What about the body weight, why even that become a matter? For those smart people this is not even a matter, well depend on what kind of market, image, or industry you are about to enter.

Anyway in this case maybe this 5 lads made to be the representatives of real teens… you might be vary on looks, body measurements, height, weight, skin color, etc but all that matters is your skill. And those shallow comment that comes are…she is too fat, we could not see her neck, posing like as if she is sexy, etc…

And again this shallow comment comes from those who just knows how to critics behind the mirror.

Why i say so…if you think you are perfect and could do something to beat them go ahead do it not just talking. Do you know talk is cheap while making an action to becomes real it is way HARDER!

Try to critics while you are stannding facing the mirror not behind it. Then you’ll find out that there is no perfection.

By having flaws means you are perfect so dont try judge someone who make an effort to prove themeselves as a better person while you with that shields of perfection not even close to the perfection itself and do nothing for yourself besides talking and judging others then just SHUT UP!

If you are able to criticize others flaws while facing the mirror and starring at your own flaws and not become speechless then i’ll learn how to be a GOD just like you.

Anyway this world feels wonderful because we are all unique and different from each other. We are not robot!

I dont mind if you dont like something or just dont agree about something…but what i do not agree when you express it with unpleasant words that only makes you look stupid and shallow. Instead of giving yourself a hard time maybe you could find decent words, smart words to express yourself ;-)

Well anyway its your decision to look stupid and becomes the jokes of the universe, i shouldnt be bother by it, should i?

For me i feel great when there are bunch of people who care to give young lads a real example to color other lads life. Thanking you know who you are…

My fave line that should be remebered by all, i guess:
“perfection is GOD bussiness”

wink wink :-)

Wohoo…now in this twitter era we could get the most updated news in a split of second. Just stay tune on your twitter timeline and voila…you are being the most updated person, well of course you have to follow the right account. Like news account from real news to gossip, etc.

Well maybe not everyone familiar with this social media thingy called twitter. But for those who knows how to use it this is the great way to get updated news, promote things, create a working link or just make friends.

Ok, this time i wanna share some of my experience with twitter.

I started to use twitter on 23rd April 2009. For me its like a new game…learn how to use it and what does it mean by twitting, mention, follow, follow back, direct message, etc.

Twitting / nge-twit
Menuliskan apapun yg kita inginkan tidak lebih dr 140 karakter kemudian memposting nya yg secara otomatis akan bisa dilihat oleh semua orang.
Awalnya ada pembatasan jumlah karakter di twitter tapi seiring perkembangannya kita bisa menulis lebih dr 140 karakter dengan disediakannya aplikasi pendukung seperti twitlonger dll. Selain itu kita juga bisa memposting foto-foto juga informasi lokasi dari mana kita mengirimkan twit tersebut, lagi-lagi dengan banyak aplikasi pendukung lainnya seperti lockerz dll.

Di twitter ada yg namanya mention, follow, unfollow, mention, dm, RT, reply dll. Jelasnya apa benda2 itu fungsinya bisa langsung googling aja atau mungkin cek link ini… http://tipsntrick.net/artikel/umum/387-mengenal-istilah-dalam-twitter

Well anyway…enough with the bla bla things…this is my experience that i love to share… yang mau dibahas kali ini adalah soal follow back or unfollow, mention ga dibales = sombong

Before Jan 2011 my twitter is only consume by me and my friends (people that i know). I follow my friends and family, some news account, gossip account and also people that i admire or people that i want to know about for many different reasons. I get follow back by my friends and family also some people that i admire for again many different resons.

But that slowly change when the boys work loads getting crazy, they became famous and i might say they like 7 eligible boys on the teens market :-D they’re wanted. Almost every teens want to know about them and this makes people around the boys become on the teens list to be followed as information source of the boys activities each and every single day.

Me..is one of the person that exist on that list and here it goes…the journey of my slowly climbing up followers started. From get followed by friends only till i get unfollowed by my friends because on early days i love spamming them with twitwar with the boys haters or just answering the exact same questions from my new followers about the boys.

Things have changed, im no longer doing that twitwar thingy..i have learned my lesson. And now im trying to be better on each of my twit. But there are few things that bothering me..about follow back and answering to the mention.

I DO NOT Follow people that i dont know unless i do admire them. So from about 80,000 followers that i have i only follow around 400 people.

Some of this 79,600 twitting just say hello, morning, good afternoon, good night, say happy birthday, say happy anniversary, asking abt the boys sched and the ULTIMATE question FOLLOW BACK please…

This follow back please thing do bother me especially when the next mention would be insulting me or say that im arrogant a.k.a SOMBONG.

Then today i twit something like this

“Gw follow @adamlevine tp dia ga follow back, kl di mention pun kayaknya ga akan dibales. Kira2 adam levine sombong ato gw yg lebay ya?”

this actually an example that i do experience myself. And the respons are vary some understand, some insulting me and some are just dont care at all.

Geregetan, gemes dan kesel liat kelakuan anak-anak muda penerus bangsa ini (lebay sih…but thats the fact) soalnya mereka tu kayak membodoh2i diri gitu. Kenapa gw bilang begitu karena mereka kan baca ya apa yg gw twit tapi mereka lakuin aja apa yg mereka mau, ga coba belajar dan memahami.

1. Soal mention

Kalo lo cuma mention saying hello, morning, good afternoon, good night, say happy birthday, say happy anniversary, asking abt the boys sched believe me it wont work. Kreatif dong katanya anak muda masa cari perhatian nya ga seru…be smart caught the attention through your amazing 140 characters. Jangan lantas karena ga kreatif nya lo trus cari jalan pintas dengan menghina, contoh: sombong, belagu, gendut, jelek, sok artis, sok cantik, a****g, t**, k****l, dll

Percaya deh…instead of you get attention to be answerd you will get report spam or even block. Dan menunjukkan betapa dangkal nya pemikiran lo…sayang disekolahin mahal-mahal sama orang tua klo cuma turn out to be someone with trashy mouth (bermulut sampah). Apalagi kali ngaku punya agama *tutupmuka krn di agama manapun manusia diajarkan sopan santun dan cerdas…

2. Soal follow back

Mereka terus twit itu itu dan itu lagi! Gw jadi pengen tau apa keren nya di follow back sama orang yg kita ga kenal dan bahkan alasan kita follow orang ini pun lebih antara nebak-nebak, yakin ga yakin siapa orang ini sebenernya…
Ok! misalnya akhirnya di follow back tapi mention dan dm lo ga pernah dibales dengan alasan yg lo ga ngerti apa atau mungkin lo malah di MUTE jadi akhirnya ga guna juga kan di follow back?

Bagus nya orang yg akhirnya follow back lo, inget sama lo pas kopdar (kopi darat a.k.a ketemu langsung)…lha kalo ga? Makin jleb!jleb!jleb! pasti rasanya kan…

So what is the point of being followed back if for him/her you just simply not exist?

if prefer to unfollow me…please do, i do not ask you to follow me at the first place,right? (This sentence sounds rude but fact!)

Soal follow back or answering a mention itu hak prerogatif gw (i might sound like a president)…im the president of my twitter account, ya kan? Jadi bebas dong…and also my right to ignore those who give me negative energy.

ps. I make this twit as my favorite:
“Twitter bukan sekedar folbek-folbekan. Kalo twitnya banyak berguna & menyenangkan bagi kita, pasti difollow deh. - @ferdiriva - “

wink wink :-)